A woman in South Carolina says she was high on meth when she deformed herself believing it was God’s will.
A woman is asking for help through a GoFundMe page after she gouged out her own eyeballs while high on meth because she thought it would bring her closer to God, according to a report. Kaylee Muthart, 20, of South Carolina told Cosmopolitan magazine that it all started with drinking and smoking marijuana, which later led to harder drugs while she was in school.
She says she was given marijuana that may have been laced with cocaine or meth last summer, and that caused her to quit school and her job after thinking that was her friend who had done it. She also lost her relationship with her boyfriend and started to focus more on drugs, according to the report.
While Muthart later got another jobs, she started experimenting with meth in August, to the point that she sometimes picked at her face while tripping on meth. As a result she lost the job out of embarrassment over how it made her look.
So she turned to the Bible, and was convinced that the meth would help her get closer to God. After a failed intervention by her mother, she bought meth from her dealer on Feb. 6, 2018, and all hell broke loose, Muthart told the magazine.
“I thought everything would end abruptly, and everyone would die, if I didn’t tear out my eyes immediately,” she told Cosmopolian. “I don’t know how I came to that conclusion, but I felt it was, without doubt, the right, rational thing to do immediately.”
A man driving by asked her a question, and she took that as a sign from God.
“So I pushed my thumb, pointer, and middle finger into each eye. I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do,” she said. “Because I could no longer see, I don’t know if there was blood. But I know the drugs numbed the pain. I’m pretty sure I would have tried to claw right into my brain if a pastor hadn’t heard me screaming, ‘I want to see the light!’ — which I don’t recall saying — and restrained me.”
The act horrified the people across the street. Muthart said she has been clean ever since that moment, and is now attempting to raise money through GoFundMe for a seeing-eye dog.
The following is the full text from her GoFundMe page.
Hello, I’m Kaylee’s mother. My daughter was involved in a tragic incident that has left her permantently blind. We have started a GoFundMe to rasie funds to get her a service dog. Like so many, she fell victim to the dangerous reality of methamphetamine. As we prepare for the long road to getting her situated in her new life we are asking for your help. The journey will no doubt require many things to allow her to live a full life. But If Kaylee’s story can help just one person, something good can come of this tragedy in our family. We are truly grateful for all the prayers and help we’ve received thus far and ask that you give whatever you can and continue to pray for us. The sooner we can provide Kaylee with a service dog, the sooner we can help her get back on her feet. God Bless.
Update for Kaylee – 03/04/2018 Kaylee is at home doing very well! She is adjusting to her surroundings but overall she’s doing well. She’s finding a lot of peace in singing. I think it makes her feel better somehow. Her body does seem somewhat exhausted because in the hospital they kept her busy all the time and she feels like she can rest somewhat now! Her first doctor appointment is tomorrow back in Greenville so that’s good! I’m trying my best to keep you all updated but this is very new to me so please have patience with me! Please continue to pray for our family and thank you so much for all of the thoughts and prayers and everything you all have done to help! Our family and especially Kaylee mean it from our hearts!